Welcome
Being unemployed gives you time to think. It is a rare opportunity to reflect on who you are, and who you plan to become. Financial difficulty is a life defining experience when faced with homelessness. I have a belief that everything happens for a reason. Having a chance to live outside of and observe a system we strive to be a part of, which will eventually destroy us gives life a new perspective. At times deep in thought I remind myself that the test of success is graded in your ability to face failure. As a young man aspiring to be a rapper I often wrote of my fear of failure, and my desire to succeed. It wasn't until age 30 on a windy October day that I embraced the idea; stagnation is like dying, all successes in life, love, and finance involve risk and accountability for your actions. The fear of failure is the same as the fear of success.
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Why Revolutionary Poems Lack Solutions
Drum roll crescendos
Like heartbeats in unison with
Click of trigger dropping hammer
The sound of an answers execution
Sparks will kiss the hard flesh
Of burnt thank you's
Before they tear open
Everything you should have never said
No wonder there are no solutions
Answers became voices of children
In metal jackets laying on each other
As they play kissing games
With lamentation on their tongues
Freedom is the face
Of everyone you've ever loved
In images of clouds that ripple
Like still water becoming stone mantle pieces
You gaze at in memory
Reflecting...
The place you put down your revolution
Ask them they will tell you
We will tell you there are moments
Moments you can feel the smell of burning flesh
As bullets kiss your organs
And you tell them "I love you"
Oprah Winfrey is in Jerusalem
Praying at the Well of Souls
Her prayers are received like
Chicago snow on the lips of Jesus
After 40 days in the desert
We will be tested
In a place sparks become clouds of smoke
Flesh does not burn and thank you's
Are sewn shut by someone willing to say everything
Poems are elementary arithmetic
Filled with problems
I need to recess from this revolution
Freedom sounds like children
Playing in native tongues
Before language becomes a barrier
And silence is trapped in skin tone boxes
Think outside me
Catch words in windsocks
We speak blue barriers
That fade black
Infinitely trapped within ourselves
We hang suspended like testicles
Strange fruit picked backwards bruised
Trying to put us back where we belong
I feel the weight of bricks and boulders
Tied to fragile bones cut free
Before reaching the bottom of what I'm drowning in
We are just breaking the surface of freedom
Beautifully Los Angeles horizons
Words set like suns on the golden tongues of lions
Entertainment is an executioner
It is easier to see everything when your eyes are closed
This bandana becomes my first right of refusal
I've been there
In the moment bullets stood still
I ran right through them
As if from jovial attack dogs
UNtitled... Nameless God if you ask us
Revolutions are violent acts
Most martyrs are pacifist
These poems cannot have solutions
The answers die before the real war begins
Nos hablan de los muertos
When its over the pistol closes the eyes
Of frightened victims
No one can stand
Being near a dead body with open eyes
I will consume you
Why won't you look at me
There are war drums fading into the darkness
As I float from brick and boulder
My last breath escaping
To tell Oprah thank you
Wednesday, February 22, 2012
At the Behest of Freedom
Overwhelming the silent sound
Of freedom passing to the end of an era
Trying to swallow tears big as American pie
Choking back regret and anger like a little girl
When you took the only thing she ever loved
Peace has a price
It is weighed on scales like justice
A pound of burnt Sunday school flesh
Is worth the weight of a race war
Can only be offset by broken glass
We stand helpless
Like riot witnesses
Defending homes when the mobs come
We are bound bureaucracy red taped victims
Balanced budget racial radicals
We are the leftist that get left out
Wives turn into walking widows
Black face American dreams
Become single parent minstrel shows
We tune in they tell us
Don’t believe everything you see on television
We have become a pay per view society
Given all the freedoms
Of middle passage passengers
Along for the ride of our lifetimes
We are all kings on abdicated thrones
Balcony bench warmers like Jessie Jackson
Pointing to tomorrow unable to live in the moment
From the floor of the Audubon Theater
Our leaders walk the path of tribulation
On the information superhighway
Social networks have become slave colonies
We are a world of negro spirituals
Voices dancing on the midnight
Huddled beneath hanging trees
Drums on our roof tops
Reminding us what we were
And how far we must still go
Urging us forward
Like hymns to God
Nothing and everything in the same harmony
A people
Trying to overcome