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Being unemployed gives you time to think. It is a rare opportunity to reflect on who you are, and who you plan to become. Financial difficulty is a life defining experience when faced with homelessness. I have a belief that everything happens for a reason. Having a chance to live outside of and observe a system we strive to be a part of, which will eventually destroy us gives life a new perspective. At times deep in thought I remind myself that the test of success is graded in your ability to face failure. As a young man aspiring to be a rapper I often wrote of my fear of failure, and my desire to succeed. It wasn't until age 30 on a windy October day that I embraced the idea; stagnation is like dying, all successes in life, love, and finance involve risk and accountability for your actions. The fear of failure is the same as the fear of success.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Love on Paper

(an erotic idea)

Their eye contacts were whispers of shared desire. Glancing touches were more often becoming promises of more to come. Then there was her alter ego, so far from the quiet innocent new mother he had come to admire and then love. He was a Gemini and unlike her he lacked release and the animal within him lie suppressed. They were there for each other, she was proud but still some needs went unmet. He was honorable kind, yet secretly he defined himself by a precarious need to be needed. They were artist: her visual, a dancer too self respecting to be nude. He, a writer thinking he had closed a chapter on his life only to realize the next page was unwritten.


They shared secrets amongst each other. His an avarice for eroticism in the physical form, dancing to the thick bass lines and deep drums of dancehall music. She had an affinity for writing, her words poured erotically from her mind to page like water from a pitcher. They both gained climactic release from their activities not knowing how soon time spent would merge them into a trinity of bliss neither would soon emerge from.


A love would come to be, from a trinity from a merging of their dualities. One was truly two; yet two would become four; four giving birth to three and three would again become one. He could be himself likewise she; importantly they could be each other. Physically joined they could breathe for each other, communicate silently through action: her gripping at his humanity and him releasing eternity within their union. Mentally content, worries began to fade from her memories faith beginning to build that he would catch her if she fell. His mentality confident; he could catch her, protect her, heal her, love her and painfully set her free if she required it of him. Spiritually they would solve each other’s puzzles, unlocking the mysteries of the heavens and creation.


She would be his rib, the rib of a man made from dust; nothing and her love would make him everything. He would worship her; she would be recognized as his most prized gift. He would pray at the feet of the temple of her body, baptize himself in her love and be still in his heart. They would seal each other’s fates; together they would become strong like steel. Their love would be forged in the throes of passion. Like a sword their steel would be folded, impurities purified, an edge would be set, it would be polished and honed. One would become two; yet two would mean four; four giving birth to three and three would again become one.


The first kiss is always memorable. Months had past; she devoted herself to asking for his company and likewise he to making himself available. Still the only romance that had mounted from their friendship were a few longing stares. And in a instant so much changed, past loves laid to rest, the birth of something new, a decade changed, an unspoken vow, a whispered promise, and in that moment bliss was eternity. She held happiness for more than a fleeting moment. He knew he didn't have to trade momentary passion to go in search of new shit. She was it. The first kiss came in time with the dropping of the New Year’s ball. Dropping like the weight of sadness, strangely flying as they held each other. In that first moment his strength uplifted her, and her spirits carried his and they rose into the night sky forever to be known as the constellation the lovers.


The foreplay would last until sunrise. Fingers would retrace the mathematical mysteries of her flesh, while hands resculpted a masterpiece set in skin after the Venus de Milo. Every inch his hands came to know that his fingers touched would be kissed, licked and tasted. With eyes closed every blemish every beauty mark would be chiseled into his memory. He would dwell at the place of her maternity that she could nurture him and he could worship the bounty of her bosom. He desired her arousal the sweet dew drops of anticipation and the scent of ecstasy lingered on the air. Vampyrically she would devour his flesh knowing the taste of man for the first time. Clutching that which defined him, in the darkness of a crowded room once and for all laying claim to her possession. Devouring him, until sweat beaded upon his forehead and the warm cloak of his DNA covered her for the first time.


She was sitting in her usual place in the living room. He sat next to her desiring her warmth, his arm around her pulling her close. She looked into his eyes, leaning in and slowly closing them: submitting her consent. Her lips moist and apple flavored touched his as they had before; their tongues waltzed upon the dance floor of their palates. Intertwined, their limbs began to tangle as she moved to mount him. His strong hands so natural on her waist, she broke the kiss his hands sliding up her sides lifting her shirt. Her arms raised she assisted in lifting it over her head, his right hand on her back thumb and forefinger releasing her supple cleavage from its confines. She released a moan as his lips encircled her breast, she grabbed at his waist as she reluctantly moved away from his warm mouth.


Clothes began to come off as sweat formed on their brows; he turned her and laid her down in one motion. One leg fell open as she gazed into his eyes aware of situation and sensation longing to be one with he who could complete her. His presence a welcome invasion to her existence. A moan again escapes past her lips, his heat making her shudder as it moved past her lips. A year of sunrises and sunsets crossed the horizon of their coupling. Positions changed as he looked down her moons waxing and waning, she gave a gentle pur as he moved piston like within her. The cloud of his masculinity raining down upon her back. They turn again she now the goddess in the skies beginning to precipitate upon him. He was the sun, she the earth beneath him, they would give birth not to a nation but to a new world. Mountains would be formed lakes would flow to rivers that let out into the ocean of their ecstasy. The terrasphere shuddered, quake like destroying ancient fortifications. The sun shook; boiling within itself the sun exploded, momentarily erasing all existence. Its energy absorbed within her black hole, creating life in a new dimension.

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