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Being unemployed gives you time to think. It is a rare opportunity to reflect on who you are, and who you plan to become. Financial difficulty is a life defining experience when faced with homelessness. I have a belief that everything happens for a reason. Having a chance to live outside of and observe a system we strive to be a part of, which will eventually destroy us gives life a new perspective. At times deep in thought I remind myself that the test of success is graded in your ability to face failure. As a young man aspiring to be a rapper I often wrote of my fear of failure, and my desire to succeed. It wasn't until age 30 on a windy October day that I embraced the idea; stagnation is like dying, all successes in life, love, and finance involve risk and accountability for your actions. The fear of failure is the same as the fear of success.

Friday, December 6, 2013

Ascending Freedom


For:  My son, my sons, my nephews, for our sons


I held his hand in mine
Pulled him close as he shook like spring leaf
Quivering on bare branch in brisk breeze
I hugged him

Made him stare through bars
Like wrought iron windows
Told him not to look away
Look into its eye
We already dwell in the mouth of a lion

He didn't shake because of fear
The roar resonated through him
As if the letters were
Trying to reach past prison walls
Like winter whispers
That knew the only truth that mattered

Call it cage call it prison
How do you tell a 5 year old
The Lion is free and your world is a zoo
Jailin when you are older
I will read you Nelson Mandela quotes

Remind myself that he said

"There is no easy walk to freedom anywhere, and many of us will have to pass through the valley of the shadow of death again and again before we reach the mountain top"
I will tell my nephew about Monica McBride
A mother should never bury their child
No matter how high we climb we will always be black
And the world hasn't outgrown its fear of the dark...
This is a world of children

I will ask him...

What use do I have for a mountain?
When fear turns fingers into fire fountains
And children fall like coins
Like tears, like prayers...
That drown in oceans of regret

Absent apology

Wishes may as well be whispers
No one hears them anyway
What good is a mountain of freedom?
When we already stand on the precipice of prejudice
And all the colors have been etched in stone
Skin and bone till the valley feels like home

Children swing-- from dreams they will never have
Because the mountain tops
Have been swept from beneath their feet
Mothers womb's become tombs--
So remind your mother
Caskets are no place to lay her love...

In this valley playgrounds are alleys
Trees are really Daddies
Easily cut down
Here childhood turns glass house
Sometimes poems become stones
Because we don't consider the weight of our words

Hill tops glisten full of broken memories
Ancestral maps marked with bloody fingers
That show us the way to glory
Like glittering grave markers
Of those we've lost along the way

Grandmother, patriarch, Queen...
Before I could ask how she climbed over such loss
She too was gone
Tell me how you overcome
The kind of strength that over comes you
When friends and loved ones become lost ones
I still can't understand

How you hide graveyards in your chest
When you cannot let caskets rest
Cause you couldn't leave them to the grasp of death
While we worship the worthless
And mothers are forced to barter breath
To help them breathe
Tell me how do we climb to freedom
When we still walk on our knees?

Only nobility knows the weight of sorrow
Old lion ... half whisper-- roar
Set straight in world gone wrong
Shoulders slumped, slacked jawed, jilted eye
Wind roused mane
Worn like a robe of struggle

Jailin ... there is no tiredness that can silence you
No fear when you live in the mouth of the beast
Your mothers tears were not meant to nail caskets closed
Teach your children where to find the pride lands
You remind me what it is to roar

It is from struggle that we gain our strength
Be powerful
Do not diminish in the face of adversity
Bent backs are only meant for attacking
Do not let this world break you

I still need a mountain top
So that I can show you the way
Please show me the way
Let me be the light in that valley
Ancestor that shimmers
Greatness that you reach for

One day...
Read my poetry ... Listen for my roar
Hope that it resonates in your son or nephew or stranger
Like words of Mandela, madiba, president, prisoner
Ancestor, light ... shimmering from the mountain top


for:  Nelson Rolihlahla Mandela

(c) 2013 Christopher "UNtitled" Jones.  All rights reserved

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Beheld Captive

December 21, 2013 my brothers art gallery The Untitled Bottega will be hosting ballet for the first time.  The story will be about Vincent Van Gogh and the love affair he had with Clanisa the prostitute.  How his love for her drove him to depression and eventually to insanity.

Art in the ballet is by Flaco Shalom and the show will be choreographed by Arryal Ramsey.
Attend Little Black Tutus December 21 at the Untitled Bottega.

Tickets are available at Little Black Tutus Eventbrite


I was honored to have a chance to see a rehearsal and it was my first time seeing ballet so close.  Often described as graceful and light beneath that exterior here in their rehearsal I could see their power.  Their wills bending their bodies, I've never seen something so beautiful.


Not wanting to spoil the show for myself I tried to look away, but I was drawn to them.  As my eyes drank in their movements I began to see words, and their bodies became old quill pens, their sweat was ink I could read clearly on the floor.  As I watched the choreographer I began to plagiarize her movements. 

This is what she created... I am grateful for the experience. 


She Shines

I had been locked away when I saw them
The floor was a blend of black and white
Prison uniform, captive behind my cool... awe
She... Her legs, their legs become fingers
They caress piano keys and their bodies become music

Violin bows sway between shoulder and wrists
Bass and cello swell and dissipate as if breathing
Like breath, so beautiful it lingers
A word ... unspoken, she speaks

In an orchestra of universal language
Their arms embrace the harps in our chest
Have you heard the beauty of  heart strings plucked
You breath for her

She absorbs you
Dances possessed
Becomes the voice spilling from the belly of a horn
Some thing delicate and forgotten

She reminds you
What it is to be alive
Listening with your eyes
To the depths of her plie

Where your soul resides, captive
She, they... the music captivates
And they draw upon the sky of your memory
Arching through the air like balls of fire

Emotions smolder
Like tear soaked hatred
Like sadness drowned in melody
Feels like joy wrapped in loss

Shining through something dark
Like hope beneath regret
She blossoms into music
Into dance

And she shines...


Attend Little Black Tutus December 21 at the Untitled Bottega.  Tickets are available at Little Black Tutus Eventbrite


(c) 2013 Christopher "UNtitled" Jones.  All rights reserved

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Shoe Polish

Shoe Polish

October 28, 2013
This is not shoe polish
I am NOT a shadow
Ghost of slavery, soot monster
Remnant of lynching... nigger picked
Swinging from a coon trap... no
I am not a porch monkey lawn jockey
Black face statue of something you think I can't accomplish
This is not shoe polish



I am the son of a teacher and a nurse
3rd generation college student, poet
Not thief, nor drug dealing murderer
I was a brown baby when my parents split
I remain whole unbroken
You cannot break me

I am Satchel Paige, Jackie Robinson
I am Jesse Owens, but no matter how fleet of foot
I can't out run your stereotypes
I can't run out of my skin
I am the child of dignity and deprivation

Do not call me black
My skin is not soil rich, I am not dirt
Though you may try to walk all over me
Stomp me down run me through the mud
I am more than what you recognize as my skin tone
This is not shoe polish

You are not racist
You are privileged
You are ignorant
Unapologetic in your actions
When you take them
You are pity... you are not charity
You are the part of the solution
That perpetuates the problem



Some of you want to help
Most just play dress up
Be ghost klansman, vampire blood sucker
Black face new American nightmare
You think this is a game, some kind of joke
I was born in your Halloween costume


Racial equality is a trick treat me like a criminal
Prisons aren't always places with bars and barbed wire
When you've been thinking a way for so long
You don't even know you are trapped
Holding onto racism is a reflex
Clutch your purse, clutch your children
Clutch to the idea that your different is somehow better
Your prison is the awkward space you create in crowded elevators



You are family dinners, tea parties, and sandwiches with the crust cut off
We are broken glass, broken home, broken down car
Progress is all we've have, you keep putting the breaks on us
We can eat at your table but you leave nothing for the taking
And I wouldn't call you greedy...
You just don't know what an empty stomach feels like

We are hunger
Starved for equality, for peace, for pride, you fear our voices
We are not loud because we're aggressive
We are just trying to talk over rumbling stomachs
To drown out our embarrassment

This is not shoe polish
This is my skin
It tears, it bleeds... I die
I am a human being
This is not a joke, not a costume
And certainly not shoe polish


Pens aren't always mightier than swords -UNtitled
Pens aren't always mightier than swords -UNtitled
(c) 2013 Christopher C Jones.  All Rights Reserved