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Being unemployed gives you time to think. It is a rare opportunity to reflect on who you are, and who you plan to become. Financial difficulty is a life defining experience when faced with homelessness. I have a belief that everything happens for a reason. Having a chance to live outside of and observe a system we strive to be a part of, which will eventually destroy us gives life a new perspective. At times deep in thought I remind myself that the test of success is graded in your ability to face failure. As a young man aspiring to be a rapper I often wrote of my fear of failure, and my desire to succeed. It wasn't until age 30 on a windy October day that I embraced the idea; stagnation is like dying, all successes in life, love, and finance involve risk and accountability for your actions. The fear of failure is the same as the fear of success.

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Observations of the Human Condition

The Promethean Effect

As the 20s roared we could not hear the thunder roll.  Like a morning storm it was followed by bright sun that warmed the earth, honestly our day was beautiful.  However; what will the night hold in store for us?  As the sun sets we are reminded the night can be an awkward gift giver.  From her we received fire, man's crowning achievement.  Yet she caresses us with a foreboding unknown like the wild, offspring of darkness-- terror of mankind it can be such a cruel place.

We have become modern.  Even through faltering education systems we have managed to raise a society of doctors.  The glint of surgical steel has been replaced by gun metal, plastic where applicable.  Our bedside manners have become contrite, abbreviated emotions given for appearances.  In our benevolence we have become surgeons trying to imitate God.  It is not so cliché to say there is Christ in all of us.  There is Christmas in all of us-- pagan holidays of gift giving.  We seem to be the holy believers who believe in nothing, except tomorrow.

But tomorrow becomes less bright once your eyes adjust.  Have we lost them?  The children-- they are pieced together from memories long since dead, part pain part promise more monster than natural occurrence.  Current courses through them they are fire hearted, unnaturally strong-- breaking all that they touch.  Have you hugged one?  Fear not, we naturally embrace destruction-- call it love.  We birth modern Prometheans trying to live up to expectations-- that which is unattainable. 

Call it what you wish.

Where are they learning this?  We no longer take stock in ourselves after privatizing humanity.  We have become commodity traders in an open market.  Lassier-faire lesser people we vacation on the profits, we spend frivolously that which is meant to be kept.  Our children are castaways; in cast iron masks sometimes we lose sight of them.  As if they were monsters fading into the snow and fog of the great north.  They are monsters, we created them-- we fancy ourselves Gods. 

What a tainted image we have.  The monster, monsters, call them Frankenstiens we've created with our dreams reflect our image.  Reflect our ugly, reflect our truths, reflect on God we breed monsters.  God too is a monster ever present lurking unseen closet dweller.  God is the fabled nightmare we respect when no one is looking and fear when we are all alone.  Quite the opposite of our children but they get their traits honestly.

They have become children of the wild.  Cast into a cold world where we cannot see their faces-- for those serve as reminders of our failures, our short comings.  Tomorrow is living proof we are imperfect creators, created imperfectly, in an image crafted to make us believe in the perfection of flaw.  We are doctors, there is a storm brewing and we must display the integrity to stare our monstrous creation in the face.